I have no memories of my childhood
I used to think that this was normal.
I didn’t realise it was a problem until I was in my mid 20s – I was still struggling to remember anything I was doing, even at that age!
My friends would ask me, “Do you remember that time we did?”
“Can you remember the time we went to?”
Trips, nights out, conversations, and important life events – I would never remember any of them!
Why couldn’t I remember anything?
I started to think that there was something wrong with me. People all around me were all recalling their own memories, their childhoods, their LIVES with smiles on their faces and it made me wonder…
Maybe this is why I struggled to feel happy?
I spent my whole childhood feeling like a sad, lost and lonely little girl, and most of my teenage years and young adult life with depression. I was ALWAYS looking for the reason why I felt this way.
And part of me I knew that deep down, this sadness, depression, the way I was living my life – it wasn’t me.
But at the same time, I didn’t really know who I was at all.
Have you ever wondered who you are?